The Noah Diary

Book excerpt: The well-known personal diary of Texas Cowgirl Jordan Douglas in college, at age 19. A Daddy's Girl and Texas Tomboy, she grew up in rural Texas roping and riding on horses with her Father, and found out love could be harder for a Tomboy who weren't as pretty as the cheerleaders. She had kept secret diaries through her teens of her ideas of love, sexual secrets, and as older guy friends shared benefits, they rejected her afterwards. She wrote about her strict religious upbringing and guilt from self-intimacy, and private sexual fantasies about the perfect Cowboy, her father. Her "Daddy Issues," and not recognizing her darker sexual needs exploded to the surface her 2nd year in College, and was recorded by her, in 'The Noah Diary." With her secret "Daddy Issues," her thick, Texas curves in her favorite Cowgirl boots and short-shorts, found herself in the arms of a stranger and older Cowboy named 'Noah' who was 27 years old, and whose style of intimacy was emotionally and physically brutal and poisoning to her mind. Jordan began a sexually-dominated summer with her hands tied behind her back, getting forced to explore her darker sexual desires of real sexual humiliation, stimulating sexual-emotional abuse, and disturbing sexual mind-play drawing out her need for more than Daddy's approval. Noah used these on her all summer as he forced her sexual needs past limits she couldn't handle, punishing her with her own desires to screaming excess, drugging her daily, and bringing her into complete Submission to his stimulating Daddy role over her. She had found true love in this journey of self-discovery and understanding, and began to feel like a beautiful cheerleader with her new Daddy, and as the summer came to an end, she feared leaving Noah to go back to college, feared facing her religious parents, her lies to them about working all summer, the truth that she had flunked her last semester to be with Noah, and they paid the bill. She had to return home to face her mistakes, when all she wanted, was happily ever after in Texas.