The Velvet Marigold Couch

Book excerpt: The Velvet Marigold Couch is a chilling look into the hellish torture of bipolar psychosis and alcohol and drug addiction. When Tasha Pedersen was six years old she watched as the walls of her safe suburban bedroom were engulfed in flames. Running down the hall, followed by the heat of the raging fire, she burst into her parents' bedroom screaming. By the time her father picked her up and comforted her, the fire was gone. As real as it was to her, it had actually only existed in her mind. Growing up in the shadow of an abusive and alcoholic older sister, Tasha takes her first drink at age 15 and quickly gets lost in a life of vodka, pot, cocaine, LSD and non-stop addiction. As she spins further out of control, she begins to hear voices, hallucinate and have delusions. Everything continues to spiral into chaos until she completely loses all sense of reality. The voices convince her that she must kill her father and tell her that the only way to save the world is by cutting off her own hand. Thankfully she is hospitalized before she can harm anyone else or herself. She then begins the long and rocky path towards wholeness. With a diagnosis of Bipolar I, she bravely recovers from both her mental illness and alcoholism and winds up finding deep faith in Native American ceremonies that completely turn her life around. The Velvet Marigold Couch: My Private Waltz Into Madness, is a story of the true horror of bipolar disorder, the destructive power of addiction and the strength and courage it takes to heal from them both. It ultimately shows how anyone can triumph over severe adversity and come out spirited and whole.